winter yuckies

here we are in january. the excitment and decorations of the holidays are down and we are left with a cold barren landscape. bleakness. nothing to look foward to except for maybe valentines day if you go for that sort of thing. we ususally go out for dinner becuase at that point my parents are home from florida and they owe up big time. however this year we will be missing our two favorite valentines chrissy and jeremy. it was our tradition to go out for dinner on valentines day for the past three or four years. i will miss them this year but i hope that they get babysitters and go out to eat where they are. we will be together in spirit! anyway ususally around easter i perk up and it gets easier for me. i really struggle with the winter. i guess i have that seasonal affective disorder or whatever. each day i wake up feeling slightly nausus and depressed. it is so gross looking outside, although the occasional fresh dusting of snow can make things pretty for a while but even that too starts to grate on my nerves come march. i will just have to take it one day at a time and try to give myself small things to look foward to.